Sorry it’s been a few weeks since I last posted. Between coming back from Paris, my birthday, and starting school, it’s been a whirlwind of a couple of months. But I am finally on a routine schedule that I feel good and very excited about. With that being said, I wanted to share with you all some of the recent adventures and feelings I’ve had about life lately. To say I’ve had a few existential moments in the last few weeks is the truth and I wanted to share some of those thoughts with you. After coming back from Paris, I felt a moment of relief to have seen my friendship grow with my mother and knowing that those memories will last forever. Shortly after Paris, I had a lot of family fly up to help celebrate my 21st birthday. We all had a wonderful time creating memories and doing a lot of drinking together… Full disclosure, I have never seen my parents drunk until this night and it was utterly amazing!!! Creating these memories with my most favorite people in the world, I had never felt so lucky to have so many people love and care for me. After everyone left, I had some time to recollect on the past few weeks and how they have shaped my life. I started to think about graduating soon and how much my life will change in the next year; financial independence, graduate, bills, etc… It’s not that things terrify me to think about, I just want to feel as a ready as possible for when these moments come. The reason I say I wasn’t terrified is because I felt confident about turning 21, surrounded by the people I love, so I know I can conquer these other milestones with the same mindset.
With all of that being said, it’s time I shared with you all of my insecurities that have come along with these milestones. When I started the website, I went in with the mindset of taking over the blogger world by storm, but I have come to realize that is going to take time and a lot of patience. Understanding this about any dream is so important, we have to be aware of the process and the role other people play in our dreams. For example, in order for me to “take the blogger world by storm” I need your support. I need your backing, and your dedication just as much as the physical site needs mine. SO SHARE! SHARE! SHARE! Success is mutual, when help and support comes from those around you, it always comes back. This can also be said about my education and the way I will tackle the job world when it’s time. My friends at school play such a large role in my education, they inspire me and push me harder to think about the way I walk into a class and the way I approach a text and language. I thank them often for be willing to discuss with me things like politics and our classes and how they have broadened my scope of thinking and I know this will persist after having graduated.
A really good friend of mine recently went out with me, and I kid you not, for the 45 minutes of traveling downtown to the bar, we went on a happy rant about how excited we are to be Teaching Assistants Abel to pass on our knowledge and wisdom to our freshman and how excited we are about our senior thesis. This made me feel confident in the people I have chosen to surround my life with, I love them and their confidence in me and in themselves. Sometimes it can really come as a shock to me how many people I have in my life to support me and I them, I am so lucky, but sometimes I forget that, so I started doing something that would restore my confidence and remind me of the amazing goals I have for myself and that I really can achieve them. I started writing a list of things down everyday of the person I want to be and saying I already am them… 1. I am a professional Blogger. 2. I am a photographer. 3. I am going to be a writer. 4. I am going to work at a major publishing house… When you write down these things and set them in the back of your mind, they’ll come up to remind you, even when you’re feel like you’re failing. You can succeed and you can reach these dreams and so can I and that is really amazing. So with all of that being said, I just wanted to let you all know that I am here for you and I am excited to continue working on this journey and I am so happy you are all here for it.