About two weeks ago, I got an email from my school saying that next years course listings were up. I had a mild freakout. Then about a week after that, I got an email from one of my favorite professors who is also my advisor, informing me that I was going to be a senior in about 6 weeks, and I needed to come in to discuss my final capstone and my classes. I REALLY freaked out. So today, I wanted to share with you some of my small fears and BIG fears on becoming an actual adult… I’m scared, but I’m also excited.
College has been such a wonderful experience for me, although I have had some major and minor bumps, I’m beyond proud of myself that not only will I be graduating with honors, but I will be graduating on-time, which is incredible. Let’s be honest, I worked my ass of in school and I continue to do so. Next semester, the fall of my Senior year, will certainly be the hardest, writing my capstone paper of 25 to 30 pages; that’s double the length of a conference paper. Although I may be nervous for that paper, I also feel that my professors at MMC have done nothing but prepare me for this.
My professors are responsible for a big portion of my confidence in moving forward. Going to a small school, I’ve gotten a lot of individual attention; I have built relationships with my professors not only as a student, but as a future colleague. They have inspired me to push myself in my abilities to write and analyze text and I am so grateful for that.
A little over a year from now, I’ll be graduating from college. A lot of you may be wondering what I’ll do with a bachelor’s in English. There are so many options to take in, teaching, writing, but my dream, which most of you may know by now judging by some of my other posts, publishing.
I would say I’m very lucky to know what I want to do with my degree. I would guess that the number one fear a recent college graduate thinks about (behind student loan debt of course) is where they are going to get a job. Not just any job will work, how many graduates actually get a job doing something they love that requires their degree right of the bat? Not many would be my guess. Obviously this is a fear of mine, but living in NYC, I feel I have better odds than others. My recommendation would be to plan. Start over the summer, in-between junior and senior year and start researching. With my own research I have found that some of the most successful publishing houses have branches all over the world. I could graduate and get offered a job with Penguin Random House right here in New York, or I could get offered a job in LA, London, Australia. Which comes my second recommendation, be open to change and possibilities you may not have thought of.
Expand your views and don’t be scared to leap. I tell myself that all the time, in hopes that one day I will believe myself, and that day will come before I graduate. I am scared to graduate, I am scared to become completely independent, but my support from my family, friends and professors is what has given me the desire to leap. You can leap too.